Monthly Archives: January 2016

Here we go again!

I started playing softball when I was 8 years old. It was a slowpitch league, and when I was 10, it changed. We began playing Fastpitch, and with the change in pitching style, I thought I’d give it a try. I got hooked.

Here I am, 26 years later, and I’m still actively involved in softball. I’ve coached for our local league for the last 3 seasons and I’m looking at becoming a board member. My husband, who, before me, knew practically nothing about baseball OR softball, is now the Head of Promotions for the league. One of the parents, who volunteered to help assist with coaching my first season with the league, dove right in too, and is now the VP and Treasurer for the league. I feel like King Midas, but with the Softball Touch. I give “the bug” to anyone I encounter. I shouldn’t take all the credit, because there’s something about softball, fast pitch softball, that works it’s way into your heart and stays. I just help, I guess, with my enthusiasm.

So even though the season doesn’t start again for a few months, we’re running clinics for pitchers and catchers, as well as hitting and fielding clinics. They’ve asked that I be there, not only as a coach, but a former player who played at an elite level.  Despite my workload for earning my Masters, I can’t seem to say no.

My first clinic will be tonight, for pitchers and catchers. Here we go again!


Night Terrors


Last night I woke up, screaming. This isn’t the first time that it’s happened, and usually, my husband, who hears me screaming, is the one who actually wakes me up. I’ve had episodes where I’ve sat up, bolting upright, but if he wakes me, I don’t get that far.

Last night I dreamed that I was with him in a North Carolina hotel and the lights started changing colors in the room. I was the only one who noticed. Eventually, I began to see the ghost/spirit of a dead woman who was getting closer and closer. She was obviously dead, and she had blood oozing from wounds on her head. It wasn’t the fact that I was confronting a ghost that terrified me; it was the malevolent look in her eyes, like she was going to make me next to die, by her hand somehow.

I remember screaming, “NO! NOOOOO!” in my dream and I was screaming NO! as my husband “smacked” me in the arm to wake me up. My body was rigid, and my head was raised slightly off the pillow, but I don’t know if that was a reaction to him hitting me awake or if it was because of the dream. I remember that for the first minute or so, all I could do was blink furiously, making sure I was, in fact, awake.

It must have been quite the ordeal because I had a dog and two cats come running. They jumped on my bed to see if I was ok, and one of the cats continued to circle me, purring, as if to cheer me up. Luckily, it worked. However, it was nearly impossible to go back to sleep immediately, for fear of entering back into the dream I was just having. I stayed up for at least an hour, going downstairs to let my dogs out, and playing on Facebook and Pinterest on my phone to pass the time and get my mind off of what had just happened. There was even a kind friend who, seeing that I was posting to Facebook at 5 AM, messaged me to see if everything was ok. I’m really lucky to have friends like that.

Are they Sleep (Night) Terrors?

My husband, Mark, asked me if I thought that I suffered from “night terrors.” I had heard this term before, but today I did a little more research. According to the Mayo Clinic, “sleep terrors” are “episodes of screaming, intense fear and flailing while still asleep.” These occur more often in children, usually ranging in age from 4-12, but can occur with adults as well. They aren’t supposed to be dangerous, unless they cause a person to lose sleep often. Differing from nightmares, sleep terrors don’t wake up a person. I wonder if I would have awakened if my husband hadn’t woken me both of the past two times this has happened. Also signs include (mine have been noted):

  • Sit up in bed
  • Scream or shout
  • Kick and thrash
  • Sweat, breathe heavily and have a racing pulse
  • Be hard to awaken, but if awakened be confused
  • Be inconsolable
  • Stare wide-eyed
  • Get out of bed and run around the house
  • Engage in aggressive behavior (more common in adults)

As previously stated, they aren’t dangerous, but one should see a doctor if they:

  • Become more frequent
  • Routinely disrupt sleep or the sleep of other family members
  • Cause you or your child to fear going to sleep
  • Lead to dangerous behavior or injury
  • Appear to follow the same pattern each time
  • Persist beyond the teen years or begin in adulthood

Maybe I ought to seek professional help?

What are the underlying causes?

According to the Mayo Clinic, the following could be causes of this phenomenon:

  • Sleep deprivation and extreme tiredness
  • Stress
  • Fever (in children)
  • Sleeping in unfamiliar surroundings
  • Lights or noise
  • An overfull bladder

But other causes, like underlying problems that cause sleep disorders include:

  • Sleep-disordered breathing — a group of disorders characterized by abnormal breathing patterns during sleep, the most common of which is obstructive sleep apnea
  • Restless legs syndrome
  • Migraines
  • Head injuries
  • Some medications

I face some of these problems already as part of my past or fibromyalgia, which independently of anything, can cause sleep disorders.

According to information on Fibro and sleep disorders, 80% of people who suffer from Fibro have a sleep deprivation disorder of the Delta sleep, or “deep sleep” phase in particular. Wikipedia’s entry on Night Terrors states that they typically occur during the first hours of stage 3-4 non-rapid eye movement (NREM) sleep and tend to happen to people during periods of arousal from delta sleep. A study done about night terrors in adults showed that other psychiatric symptoms were prevalent in most patients experiencing night terrors.[17] There is some evidence of a link between adult night terrors and hypoglycemia, from which I do not suffer. Also mentioned was that in adults, night terrors can be symptomatic of neurological disease and can be further investigated through an MRI procedure.[21]

Fibro IS a neuro-muscular disorder, so I already knew not everything in my brain is AOK. I’ll save myself from the MRI and the cost. But in the meantime, I guess this means that until someone finds a cure for Fibromyalgia, I might have to deal with this for awhile.

JJJ 2016







What are the Odds?!

So right now, as of today, the Powerball lottery is up to $400 million dollars.  Is this a big deal to me? No, because I don’t waste my money on pointless hopes. There are terrible odds. It’s insane.

In fact, Time wrote an article about it. They included Ten Things that are more likely to occur than winning the Powerball…

Here are 10 things that are more likely to occur than winning the lottery:

1. Dying from an asteroid strike: 1 in 74,817,414.  Personally, I’m pretty happy that the odds are this bad. I wouldn’t like to see a life-ending event in my lifetime.

2. Getting killed by a terrorist act in the United States: 1 in 10,000,000. I’m old enough to remember 9/11 and the Boston Marathon bombing. I’d rather not face either of these personally, although I know people who have.

3. Getting murdered during a trip to the Grand Canyon: 1 in 8,156,000. OK, well since I’m not planning to visit Arizona any time soon, I’m safe here.

4. Dying from chronic constipation: 1 in 2,215,900. Why wouldn’t you just take something? What causes it to be chronic?  And this coming from someone who suffers from IBS…

5. Becoming a movie star: 1 in 1,505,000. I’m ready for my close-up, Mr. DeMille.

6. Getting struck by lightning: 1 in 1,101,000. I actually know someone this has happened to.  I tease him about it all the time.

7. Dying from a hornet, wasp or bee sting: 1 in 79,842. Unless I am stung multiple times like Macaulay Culkin’s  character in My Girl, I doubt that I’m in much danger here.

8. Bowling a 300 game: 1 in 11,500. Oh. Yes. This is the one. I used to bowl in a league when I was a child. My highest game?  247. Bowling a 300 game could happen.

9. Being the same height actor Hugh Jackman, who is 6-foot-2: 1 in 23.3. I’m 36, and 5’8.5″ tall. I would reckon that I’m finished growing.

10. Becoming disabled, disfigured or killed by a parasite: 1 in 7.2. Sure. What a way to go.  You can’t even face it because it’s so small. Bastards.

So what’s the point of all of this?  Save your money for something more worthwhile…like being able to afford that Lamborghini you’ve always wanted. Chances are, you’ll be able to afford one before you win the Powerball.

.JJJ 2016



Get started!

JJJ 2016

I don’t want to do this out of some trite reason like a New Year’s resolution, but beginning with #JusJoJan, I would like to pledge to start writing more.

Like all writers, I suffer from a low self-esteem concerning my writing. I don’t want people to read what I’ve written and think to themselves how pointless or horrible it was. I’m going to do my best to get over that.

With the current course I’m taking towards my Masters in English and Creative Writing, called The Editor, I am learning not only how to self-edit my work but how to write better. Not too many of my courses covered actually writing. We learned more about the history of other people writing. I want to get INTO the writing.

So what’s stopping me? School, kids, family, and other priorities take my time first. At this point, I need to just tell everyone in my life that I need to buckle down and get going. Even if it’s blog posts to begin with, culminating into a novel, we all have to start somewhere.

So it begins…

Just Jot It January 2016 Rules

I will be taking part in this, to the best of my ability, while I’m also taking a Masters course called, The Editor.

Linda G. Hill

Here are the rules for JusJoJan:

1. Just Jot It January starts January 1st, but it’s never too late to join in! Here, we run on the honour system; the “jot it” part of JusJoJan means that anything you jot down, anywhere (it doesn’t have to be a post, it can even be a grocery list) counts as a “Jot.” If it makes it to WordPress that day, great! If it waits a week to get from a sticky note to your screen, no problem!

2. If you write a JusJoJan post on your blog, you can ping it back either to my daily JusJoJan post or here, to make sure everyone participating knows where to find it. To ping back, just copy the URL from this post or the daily post, and paste it anywhere in your post. Check to make sure your link shows up where you want…

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